Any Moment Now My Son Could Vanish

258 views | 4 comments
Desiree Capuano expression at the thought of her son leaving and never hearing from him again.

Desiree’s expression at the thought of her son leaving and never hearing from him again.

In five short months mine and Patrick’s son will turn 16 years old. The day he turns 16, if he sets foot in Ontario, Canada, he will not be legally required to return to me. I suspect, by the time that day arrives, he is going to leave and I am not going to hear from him again.  I cannot, reasonably, blame him – not after all the misery I’ve brought into his life over the past 5 years – but I will.  I will say he’s an ungrateful, spoiled bastard.  I will blame it on Patrick.  I will insist Patrick turned him against me, filled his head with lies that I am a monster.

Between now and his 16th birthday, I’m not going to allow him to visit his father, Patrick, in Canada because it just would be too easy for him to simply decide not to return; and too close to his 16th birthday for me to do much about it.  I know, without any doubt, that if our son were to visit Patrick within the next few months, he would not return. Oh, Patrick would bring him to the airport at the time I would command him to, but after passing through security, when Patrick would no longer be with him, he would simply turn around walk away. The security cameras at the airport would show that Patrick did bring him there, so I wouldn’t be able to accuse him failing to return our child.

But even if I don’t allow our son to visit, it’s still just so easy for him to walk out the door of my house at any moment between now and then, catch a flight, a Greyhound, or an Amtrak, to the Canadian border and never have to deal with any of my fucked up shit any more. Patrick has set up a trust fund for him, so money wouldn’t be an issue.  And getting a few thousand dollars and a throw-away mobile phone to him is simply a matter of making a call to an attorney or investigator in Tucson.

I was listening to the recording of the most recent child custody hearing Patrick and I had, back on March 28, 2016.  I noticed the judge made multiple references to our son turning 16 in a few months – but no mention of my allegation that Patrick said when he turns 16 he’s going to take our son to Ontario.  It almost seems as though the judge was hinting that, “Yes, that is the law and when he turns 16 he can go to Ontario and there’s not a fucking thing you can do about it.”  I’m starting to wonder if maybe that has anything to do with why the judge gave me full discretion on all contact and visitation.  He probably knows our son is going to split within a few months anyway.

Maybe I can take some solace in knowing that I live in the middle of fucking nowhere, so that ungrateful bastard wouldn’t be able to get too far.  Then again, there are taxis.  There’s no reason he can’t just take a taxi to the airport.

God damn it! There’s got to be some way I can stop the kid from going back with his father!  I mean, that’s what it’s all about, right?

Seems to me, the only way to make sure that little fucker doesn’t take off is to never let him go outside; never let him go out with his friends; never let him go anywhere without me!  The school year is over soon – but until then, there’s always the chance he might take off from school!

Ah fuck, I guess I’m just going to have to resolve myself to the fact that at any moment, from this point on, that spoiled, piece of shit son of mine could vanish and I will never, ever hear from him again.  He’ll go live up there in Canada with all the other fuckwad Eskimos, and talk about how great his asshole father is.  Fuck them both!

I fucking hate it when I lose!

 

[Comment from the Editor: My own mother was almost exactly like Desiree. I left home at 14, spent much of my teenage years as a runaway, on the streets – but I never went back to my parents. I eventually changed my name and moved on with my life. Some years later they both died, and I’ve never had a single regret about leaving and never speaking to them again. Sometimes it’s better for a child to have no parent, than to have a bad one.

4 Responses to Any Moment Now My Son Could Vanish

  1. Marie Smithers says:

    I really hope your child does leave you and I hope you never hear from him again. What other outcome could you have expected? Did you think you could force your child to love you by making him live with you against his will and having his father deported? You might have gotten custody by default but you can’t get your child’s love and respect “by default”.

  2. jow says:

    fuck off

  3. jow says:

    You suck dude, no wonder she left your stupid ass!

    • Patrick Fox says:

      What a unique and insightful opinion you have.

      By the way, I don’t know where you get the idea she left meI was the one that ended the relationship, not her. She physically left Los Angeles (where we lived), but I was the one that filed for divorce and custody. Do you even know how to read?

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Please enter the missing number to confirm you're real. *